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Deborah Witte's avatar

Beautiful. Just beautiful. I'm on this exact same journey of discovery...giving... I've just discovered this path as well. Thank you for sharing.

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me.

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Susannah Cragwick's avatar

It is difficult sometimes to not let our past define us or control us. I love how you describe that evolution of going deep and trying to discover what you want.

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Thank you. That part of the passage, of letting go of the past, took years.

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Mo__'s avatar

Beautifully written, great reflections. TY

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Thank you so much for saying so. It means the world.

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The Earthmonk's avatar

Wow Susan! Do you believe in synchronicity?

I had a facsimile-like experience in NYC while taking a Lifespring Leadership course. The reflective prompts that you wrote about were nearly the same word for word. The awkwardness of staring into each others eyes..I had forgotten all about this experience.

However, upon reading your Substack it all came rushing back to me. “What do you want? What do you really want? What is it that you really, really want?” Peeling the onion layer by layer. Exposing the roots of my being. As I dug deeper and deeper, I cough it up… “I wanted to be married, have a wife, start a family, I wanted to have kids”. I wont write what my partners reply was when I asked her the same questions.

Years later, that part of the river of life has passed under the proverbial bridge of time.

So now, What do I want? What do I really really want now?

Hmmmm ?

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

I’m a Jungian, so ya I believe in synchronicity. I wonder if my facilitator was at your training stealing ideas? Plus, I remember coming out of meditation one day when I was 33 with the sudden relization that what I truly wanted was a husband and a child - that the thing I’d been avoiding my whole life was the one thing I needed and wanted - a family. I’m so glad that happened. Creating a family was the best thing that happened in my life.

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