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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Me too. Naturally, I’m a pit bull. It took a lot for me to surrender. I still have to every day. Okay. Several times a day. But the world needs pit bulls too. We can’t all be doves.

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Ally Hamilton's avatar

Before I had my kids I used to go on Vipassana retreats every year. I truly thought I'd leave the first one in a padded van, I started having that thought about halfway through the first full day? Maybe the second. But I'm stubborn af, so if I was leaving, that's probably the only way it would have happened. The morning of the fourth day, I finally gave in. Best thing that ever happened to me, or certainly, the most healing. I haven't done a 10-day sit since I've had my kids, but I do meditate every day, and you wouldn't want to know me if I didn't :)

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Nan Tepper's avatar

YES! This is fabulous. I loved every word, the laughter, the different personalities. And with all of that release, I still feel intense dislike for (because "hate" is too strong a word) the woman who tried to make eye contact and then ran her finger down your forearm. I found that repulsive. Such a devouring thing to do. Okay, fine. I still hate her. You're a terrific writer, Susan. xo

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

OMG, thanks Nan. You are so generous. What a way to start my day! It means so much to me. Some things are just shiver-down-the-spine repulsive.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Exactly. So creepy and presumptuous. I can't stand behavior like that. And you're a really good writer! Glad we discovered each other!

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Me too. Let’s get to work restyling my Substack!

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Kate Harvey's avatar

Love this! I went to silent retreats every summer for a while. I got a lot out of them, though at times it felt ridiculous!

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

I know. It does. The most ridiculous part is the noise between my ears. Mercifully after about 3 days it stops, and what is left is glorious.

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Liza Debevec's avatar

I love how this surprised me.

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Prajna O'Hara's avatar

Now, I hav e read it — I love the paradox, the humor, the seeing — all good. Thank you

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Thanks so much. It was great to see you today, if only on Zoom.

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Prajna O'Hara's avatar

I love this title and will read. So good.

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The Earthmonk's avatar

An eco-spiritual being from the cosmos….

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Susan Kacvinsky's avatar

Yes, yes you are all of that.

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